Airport Duty X_X

I'm craving to socialisezzz.

I think I'll go to SERVE tomorrow. (for one session)

Sometimes I have excess energy and sometimes I lack energy.

Wish I had some good friends I can go out with anytime I want...

For 4 days I'd been stuck in Changi Airport.

I spent long hours stuck in one small room with 3 other guys, when I'm not on patrol.

Ok Geez I think I'm revealing a bit too much. I'm not supposed to. Confidential.

The first day was okay. I guess I can say it was cozy and I got to know 2 more people better.

I bought some book about the brain to read in Changi and so I read it.

And you know, reading about how a Baby is so attracted to his mother's voice, how people's eyes' tend to dilate when they see someone they find attractive (and in turn the person who looks at the dilated eyes also tends to find the person looking at him/her more attractive), how our eye direction and stuff reveal emotional states, our mind's ability to infer the thoughts of others - theory of the mind so that we can communicate with people --- made me think of girls more..

Ahhhh I dont know why I'm revealing this but I've been thinking about girls a lot recently, for no apparent reason. And its a negative thing more than positive. "Negative energy"

The second day (last friday) I was BoReD. We count down the time when we're inside the room.

After a while my boredom got deeper. Like some "sharp" or "intense" boredom. Like Emptiness. Sianz. It feels like shit. It cripples my faith/confidence in the Lord and in myself. Its extremely hard to stay positive during that period. I think normal people rarely experience this but I do occasionally. I was probably more vulnerable to it after that stupid "mental attack" a few days back.

Hm since much of what I write here in this blog has been about my walk with God, and I feel a bit uncomfortable about it, I shall say this. This negativity. A few days ago - in Changi - after doing my devotions I thought, how desperate should we be in seeking God? I thought if anyone befriend's me and gets close to me that person would think I'm a bit weird/crazy (because they dont know the depth of my pain)...

--- Aiya, I hope you're not judging me for that. My sense of what's personal and what's not doesn't work well sometimes, like in the state of mind I'm in when I'm writing in this blog. I usually dont take into account much how people will take it reading what I write. And some of my army friends may have discovered the URL of this blog since one time I went to blog while playing LAN ---

The goodness of seeking God I get in my life does not seem to match up to that said in scripture.

I felt unsettled for a while. About how my whole walk with God was going. Not at peace. But now I am at peace. In all things God works for the good of those who love him! (Romans 8:28)

Hmm now I'm thinking what I should censor saying here because of the younger ones...

Since JYM camp there's this battle going on in my mind. I've been stuffing myself with scripture.

Its like a roller coaster ride where every few days it changes. First I'm winning, then I'm losing, then I'm winning, then I'm losing...

I'm holding on to Ephesians 6:10-20 about the Armour of God.

I'm going back to Changi again, tomorrow evening. Coming out on Sat night. I'll be burning the whole CNY. :(

But I'm cool with it. See you all next Sunday. I'll be looking forward to Sunday.

Btw theres one draft in this blog that has been a draft for quite some time.

Eunice I read it already heh.

Kenneth

Romans 8:37

WAH kenneth:) active blogger eh?

Guess what, this semester i have been learning about Psychiatric Nursing. And so we are learning ALL ABOUT mental health and illnesses. VERY VERY INTERESTING!

other than that, it is a crazy semester, but i really thank God for just day to day moments God placing ppl into my life:) makes it whole lot easier.

LAUGH. i love to laugh, and i realise during times of intense stress, deadlines, or just tiredness, LAUGHING is the way to go. funny thing is i have found myself laughing with/at ppl who are not say very close to me in school, laughing with bunch of hilarious friends and company. LAUGH.

Oriole, LAUGHING helps:)

Laugh at yourself too!

Meanwhile, pls remember this Sunday we are giving Hampers at the Block 1 residences at Holland V. Meet at Blk 1 itself okay, say about 2pm (along with JYM)? opposite cold storage i think. Our dear Pei Xuan is joining us:)

CLAUD

CLAUD

A moment of acute Psychological pain

I'm down again. I just got a "mental attack". I'm going to openly say that I go through this occasionally. Just now for a moment I didn't feel like living... I felt specifically that, in the midst of the torment that was going on in my mind. For a moment, I felt a sharp sense of loneliness as well.

Its scary how I get these mood swings...and these specific periods of chaos and darkness in my mind.

I find it extremely difficult to describe in a logical way. I can't relate it much to common experiences we go through. Here is a more intense version of what I went through just now: http://oak08.blogspot.com/2009/08/pain.html

It doesn't all end when the "mental attack" is over. When the attack ends, I'm left weak and vulnerable. The stench of the horror of the attack lingers on for a long time, days or weeks.

Some people may think I put much effort into reading God's word or something to do with obeying God. At least thats what I sometimes get in Christmas cards.

I have to say that its not natural. The main motivation for me in disciplining myself to keep in tune with God is the relief from deep suffering. The overwhelming weight, uncontrollability and irrepressibility of the suffering constantly compels me to seek God.

Actually for this attack I can share what thoughts I had that probably led to that "mental attack" but I find it too personal to disclose... some of it.

I was troubled somewhere between 1st-2nd week of January. I was scared of not being in tune with God, not doing God's will for my life (I talked about it on this blog). On 16 Jan, Sun, during JYM worship I think I sensed God's peace (in a "quiet", "soft" way) along with the message that I shouldn't worry about not doing God's will. Its just a phase I have to go through. (I'm not sure if the previous sentence was made up by myself).

I hope its just a phase...

I struggle to live in victory. Why are the "wiles" of the devil always so hard against me?

I must take captive every thought (2 Corinthians 10:5) and think positive (Philippians 4:8).

Kenneth

A Close Shave!

Wow I almost thought I was going to get charged. (as in for a "Crime")
Charged for helping other sergeants' do area cleaning in their bunk without permission. Coz someone lost his $90+ jeans. And he just called me about 30mins ago and was raving mad at me. I just booked out at 4+, reached home 5+, and have to book back in by 11pm today for Guard duty tomorrow. That Sergeant (higher power than me, militarily) demanded that I go back to army camp and find his jeans by 7.30pm. He was in Smart 4 attire (greenish army uniform) and desperately looking for his civilian clothing to change to, and book out of army camp.
I didnt take his jeans...
My Sergeant Major was there this afternoon to inspect on area cleaning before we could book out and his standard is high. If we fail his expectation, we book out later. He can make us stay till at least 9pm when the original book out timing was 2pm. Many people werent at the army camp, some on course, on operation, off. So after we failed the inspection the first time I decided to look through all the bunks. I dunno why but I had the drive to. So I went it more than almost 15 bunks arranging everything nicely as they ought to be while most people were just slacking at their beds...
Its a bit weird for me to have done that, coz its like I go in a bunk and see an officer's stuff and arrange things for him. I go into my sergeant's bunk when my sergeants are inside and touch their stuff (help them arrange footwear, blanket, pillow...
While others were whining at later book out, I didnt. I didn't really feel the sianness of it.
I dont want to be proud of that. I just want to thank God he gave me the motivation to help others, the company.
So someone's jeans was missing and he blamed me for it because I couldnt name anyone else who entered the bunk.
I also thank God that I was suprisingly calm about it. Instead of getting angry with that worked up guy, I felt for him... Its like, loving your enemies can become quite easy, if you dont see them as enemies...

I almost took a Cab down to my army camp - its Maju Camp. Not only out of fear (although a sergeant wouldnt have the power to make me book in to camp like this, if I was accused for theft it may have become a big thing because there is theft constantly going on in my company and Sgt Major is treating it seriously), but also for compassion for the guy. (I hope Im not being proud of this...)
I tried calling people for help. But many people didnt pick up their phone. My handphone batt was going to go flat any moment. And then my COS called to say that the jeans had been found, hidden in someone else's bed pillow or blanket. Dont know who did it. Roughly 1-2 minutes later, my phone died. If my phone died earlier...
Isn't this like a God-thing?
First time I felt God was using me in a long time. Cool.

God is sovereign (in complete control) over everything. The good will be rewarded, the bad will be punished.

Love
Kenneth

Kenneth's 3rd week of Jan?

Hi, Kenneth here.

I have a "nights out" today so I can come out of army camp for the night. So here I am in the IRC lan shop in Beauty World writing this post. My platoon usually goes there when theres nights out to play Dota / Modern Warfare / CS. But I had this urge to blog now so here I am.

I may continue blogging form this post some time later when I have my journal to use as reference. About the details of the rather quiet but good week I had. Btw I may not be coming to church this sunday because of army.

My week has been quite good. Surprisingly good for a week in army. One of the best weeks in army I ever had in fact, come to think of it. I had nights out every day from monday to thursday (I usually get it once a week). It was a prayerful week - I prayed a lot! - and I had quite a lot of (somewhat) solitude time with God. A great time of growing spiritually, healing, training of character. I think God's peace was residing me, although I didnt at any moment feel it strongly. I was scared, 1-2 weeks back, of not being in the centre of God's will for my life (as I blogged about previously). I was scared of horrific experiences I had repeating itself. And experiences I had when I was certain that I did not have a peace or inner joy protecting me. The solution, as I see it, is to do and think what God wants me to do and think. Or to trust in God fully, that he would keep me from falling (Jude 1:24) and good will turn out of everything that is happening. In Cell Group last sunday Eunice asked what I meant or what I referred to when I said I wanted to Trust in God Fully. Its something like this. Along these lines.

Oh Im taking a break to play a dota match.

Ok Im done. Second time I used Phoenix. Quite fun.

Talking about Jealousy (as Esther did), I felt jealous today. I felt jealous of the many other boys in NS who lead a better NS life than I. My army camp, Maju Camp, was more sucky than I thought. (Its already crappy compared to other camps.) Being the first batch of soldiers in the unit serving in conventional warfare (like fighting in the jungle), we had a lot of teething problems.

I'm going to serve in Changi Airport for two weeks. My whole Chinese New Year period will be burnt. One sunday will be burnt as well. And they are unlikely to give us back extra off days like it supposed to be in normal camps. Like Im doing Guard Duty this Saturday but I dont get an Off because of it. Guard Duty in my camp is tiring. Compared to others camps. Last year December I would likely have been able to get more offs/leave if I was from a different, normal fighting fit soldier camp. I'll be going to Changi again in March. It really feels like a waste of time...

I took a course selection test recently and I just found out that I failed it. If I passed it I wouldnt have to go to Changi... I'll also be able to Stay out for a while (go home everyday instead of only weekends) and have a more relaxed and nice Re-service life.

I was a little angry about it. I felt like fighting for my rights for a while. This is unfairness... (except failing the test). But no. This is jealousy also. I became angry (to some extent) not because I know of bad things thats going to happen, but because I came to know others in NS are having it better than me. I'm treating this as a trial, a test. God's disciplining. To not care so much about myself. There are others worse off than me, and I am to love them as I love myself. So as much as I want to fight for myself (not exactly wrong), even more I should want to fight for them...

Even if we werent to talk about being too self-centered, jealousy is also bad in another way. Jealousy, like anxiety, doesnt help a situation. It just drags a person down.

I used to feel (or may still feel) jealous about other other people's confidence, intelligence, happiness, attractiveness, wealth, friends, even something like "normalness", etc. I more or less got over some of them. I'm in the midst of getting over some of them. I must look at the bigger picture and get over this NS-life jealousy as well.

Btw if you got a prayer request in this period of time, feel free to sms me about it. If you feel comfortable enough I guess.

Ok my time is up, Cya.

Give Thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His steadfast love endures forever.

:)

Esther's Jan

So just some highlights of my Jan so far...

Second day of school, just as I was about to get ready for school, I stepped on two piles of cat vomit -.- one after another. On my way down I realised there was a bit of cat vomit on my bag strap which went onto my shirt... Yikes. Haha and I thought it was better if I didn't tell my friend who I borrowed her jacket from I had vomit there :p Ahem. Anyway.

Second Week,
Cat vomited again (I think it's the food! :( ) and it went all over my bag ugh. Found this as I was getting ready for school again, so had to rush and change my bag.

School in general
Not as bad as I thought it would be :-)
Well me and my form teacher's been ignoring each other! So hoho. I'm fine with that.
Lessons can get pretty dry but my friends make it easier.
Although the day seems really long sometimes, the week seems to be passing too fast. I feel like I haven't accomplished much (study wise) and I find myself stressing over not accomplishing what I should rather than stressing over the homework instead! Heh which is quite stupid actually.


Half of Jan is over and my sweet 16 is coming! Honestly I still feel the same as 6 years ago! And instead of growing smarter I feel like I'm growing dumber! Le sigh. And looks like I'm going to be spending my birthday at this Discipline Camp in school -.- which my drama cca is hosting for the first time. (28th-29th) Not complaining! Who knows, maybe they'll give me a cake right? :) Or maybe I can be excused from whatever they've planned up their sleeves...

Haha just as I was typing, my sis had to say,

"OOOOH!"
Me," what?"
Sis," ... There's a fly in my drink"
Me," Oh... nevermind just drink it! It's nutritious"

And she did :D

So Spiritually speaking, I'm not as 'close' as God as I would've liked to be. It's like, there's no zzzap/sparkzzz, you know?! Mmmm, I think there's a part of me that stops this zzap! Maybe sin, but that's so vague. I'm praying He'll reveal to me whatever it is though :) (that's how it works right?)

Sometimes, even in JYM, it's like frustrating, because you know that there are people out there who love and worship God with all their hearts, and they can even testify "God told me this..." "I felt God saying...". Or sometimes they would burst out speaking in tongues and all. I know this shouldn't be the case and it's probably wrong in every way, but sometimes I feel a teensy bit jealous. Jealous because I can't feel what they're feeling, no matter how hard I try. It's like, why can't God touch me, like He did for them? I know I should be happy for them, that God's working in their lives, and I shouldn't question God's actions. Maybe now's not the right time. But there's just this small part of me that says, where have You left me?

Do any of you get that? Or is it just me.

I think the problem with me is that I don't live in a Job-like life. Somehow in a way I still feel resentful, I think, that other people have it easier in life. But I also know that some people have it much much much worse, so I shouldn't complain.

In any case, I was quite surprised at this 'jealousy' feeling that popped out of nowhere. I never thought I would feel jealous! Unhealthy feeling, I know :(

On a lighter note!

I thought this was really funny :)

a peek into what i have been up to

I AM SORRY ORIOLE for my silence on this lovely bustling blog. to one and all who have blogged, THANK YOU:)

Well for the past 1 month, starting mid Dec till now, mid Jan, i have been posted to the Obstetrics and Gynaecology (O&G) ward AND Paediatrics ward..

So basically it has been work for me from either 7am-3pm or 12.30pm-8.30pm and i loved both of my attachments.

What i have been up to?
- i have been carrying and feeding crying babies
- taking care of mothers who have either miscarried or chose to terminate their pregnancies
- i have observed vaginal delivery :)
- i have been kicked and pushed when trying to hold down a crying child when doctors were setting plug for him.
- i have been kicked and pushed by a kid when i was removing his plug
- i have been asked to remove a beatle from a patient's friend's pillow case --> trust me, a nurse does EVERYTHING. haha so i gotta remove the beatle, with a smile on my face, though that girl was squealing away.
- i have a small 8 year old girl who was admitted for a fracture giving me a slice of cake before she was discharged
- i have made friends with many kids AND their parents
- i have a small 5 year old girl call me a sister and giving me hugs and kisses
- i have patients who have HUGE lungs like mariah carey and CRY AND CRY NON STOP, they scream and NEVER stop, even when the father is there.
- i have cleaned up puke, vomitus, poo, urine of kids
- i have heard so many stories of parents who are so tired mentally and physically when they care for their child who is chronically ill and how they refuse to cry cos they want to keep a brave front.
- i have witnessed the love of fathers and mothers. AMAZING LOVE.
- i have witnessed tears well up in a dad's eyes in the delivery suite when his first daughter arrived on earth.

what is my point in sharing all these? BE A NURSE:)
HAHA no lah. I just wanted to say, everytime i am on attachments, everytime i deal with ppl, i see a lot, i learn a lot, a lot about love, about humans, about politics, about relationships, about life, about death, about suffering. Indeed life lessons and observations, and all these experiences really are so precious, you deal with these when you are a nurse. So this January this is what i have been up to, tiring, BUT always very satisfying and enriching.

Back to school for two weeks and then I will be back at NUH for my Mental Health posting at the Psych ward..

Something which someone once told me..
 " It is not the number of years that matter, but the LIFE in your years".

Thinking about life, thinking about death, really what matters is the LIFE in my years, in our years, everyday as we awake, as we open our eyes, as we trudge to school, as we stone at bus-stops and flag for buses, as we drive here and there, as we hang out with friends post school, as we brush our teeth preparing to sleep, as we mug and do countless past year papers and Ten Year Series, as we go for tuition (ahem YewGin),

stop and think.. about the "LIFE" we are putting it, our every breath, our every breath of praise and worship unto Him, and how in every breath and waking moment He is in our everything, that everything we do matters because it adds to "Kingdom Moments".We make our days, how we live our lives, how we spend our days, how we see our days, how we use our days....

Okay Oriole, i will be seeing you guys in say about 15 hours' time.

:)

Love, Claud

just an update?

Hi Oriole.

I'll just look into my Journal and write roughly about my life this first two weeks of 2011.

Argh I'm having some trouble writing here. I'm itchy all over.

I just realised that within the last one hour of using my computer, I've gotten 5-10 mosquito bites.

Okay that wasn't from my journal but what I'm going to write now (some of it) is.

On Monday, 4 Jan, I went to watch Narnia (the first Narnia movie I watched) with my relatives. Er, 3 females actually haha. Two cousins and one Aunt (who was a surprise guest). "Enough said". The movie was simple but it challenged me. To stand strong against evil.

The most important of my new year resolutions would be to:

1. First have a constant steadfast trust in God and learn to "Trust in God fully".

2. Second to stop (or lessen) thinking and talking about negative thoughts about myself.

On that same monday I went back to army, after a short December break and it felt nice actually. Felt like first day of school, saying hello to everyone. But the next day few days were BoRiNg. And I didn't have proper quiet time though I had time. Bad. I was conscious but stumped about Pride the whole week.

By the time Sat. came, I was troubled and unsettled. I was scared. Not sure why. On sunday I was glum. I sang for JYM, and it was a challenge to not give some negative impression through my body language or expressions because I particularly do not like to put on a front.

I was thinking of it during the Leaders' Commissioning time. I remember Pas. Henry sharing that he thought how wonderful it would be if we don't serve just with our strengths, what we are good at and hide our weaknesses. He received a Christmas card from someone who said she appreciated what Pas. Henry shared on the 2nd night (I think) of JYM camp. And Pas. Henry said "Be vulnerable" to one another (he was talking about care and fellowship). So I asked myself, to what extent was I supposed to show my "sianness" during worship? I felt lousy about myself. (it wasn't just about that instant of singing in JYM. For one thing, I'm not a leader in JYM or Army.) Its my whole ... like ambition? Everyone wants to achieve something. But I look at my character and shake my head...

That was what I was thinking about in just before cell group time last week.

In Cell group I had a short relief from it somehow but after that it became worse.

I felt so defeated. Like the seeds which landed on thorns and get choked. (parable of the sower)

I was down and it went on for the earlier part of this week. There's one guy in my platoon who recently likes to say a lot of bad stuff about me to me. Irritating. I was thinking of whether I should reveal what was said but I decided I shall not.

And there's a Christian also in my platoon who ... im not in very good terms with. And I can't find anyone in army that I can trust enough to share my feelings with...

Things soothed down the past few days.

I invested more time on the word of God this week. And maybe that was it. I suffered because I did not have my daily bread for a few days... (just maybe...)

I bought my first devotional book (Christian book used for devotions) on sunday: My Utmost For His Highest. Its not so easy to read.

1 Peter 5:7 is what I've been clinging onto past few days: "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

Oh I just refreshed the blog and saw Claud's post. I started earlier than her (so my post is put earlier but I published later).

And wow I got a lot of imagery from reading that. And, nice post.

Keri, I may not have felt "darn competitive, like very competitive. Like deep inside... you wanna do so well and beat everyone." but it was certainly natural (like Ivan) for me to want to be better than others, especially in JC. Even in church sometimes, I think of where I stand... When I think of it I usually dismiss it as bad, prideful thoughts and try to ignore it. But its always there, somewhere. Grades for exams affected me quite a lot less than my scores relative to others.

Good night.

Kenneth

Ivan's January

How's everyone doing in school? :) Hope everyone is settling into your year well!

My January is moving rather slowly. Applied to two ministries (those who didn't ask for my resume heh) and got one response, from MFA. They want me to go for their first round of selection on January 17th, so aye. Just prepping myself for that by reading up on all my Singaporean foreign policy stuff.

HOWEVER, they are supposed to let me know exact details to my newly created gmail account (since my hotmail ain't appropriate for job applications). But gmail seriously confused me - sometimes it indicates my email account as ivanirwinchan@gmail.com, and some others as ivan.irwin.chan@gmail.com. So I got worried sick that the MFA email didn't get through cos I gave them the wrong address.

So anyway, I just sent two emails to my gmail, testing each one, and I've come to the startling conclusion that the DOTS DON'T MATTER AT ALL!

[by the way, my hotmail is still my primary so DON'T send stuff to my gmail thanks]

Just hope they reply me soon... and the folk at MINDEF too. In the meantime it's probably time to finally do up that resume and expand my job hunt.

On the flip side, it means more time for serving God now, and my time in Oriole is most definitely extended.

***

Anyway shoutouts to Oriole:

Kenneth - regarding humility. i think the thing about being humble is just to not consider yourself or your needs at all. one does not stop being proud by thinking, "oh, I must be humble". Humility is best learnt or demonstrated in a relationship, by putting that person - or God - above yourself and your wants, rights, etc. good for all of us to reflect on. :)

Claud - AY!

Keri - it was very natural for me to have that mentality... so anxious to be better than others in class. in that sense being in RI was both good and bad; bad that i absorbed that kinda competitiveness from everyone, but good that I got humbled in learning there are a LOT of people smarter than me. :D

by the way. good to see you are enjoying your PE lessons in MGS.

Sharlene - shouldn't "fudgie" be used for a brown hamster? shouldn't this guy be like "vanilla swirly" or something? hope school's better, and good job on that Chinese B3. That's a good result, to me. Haha

Esther - how are things with the form teacher now? hope things will pan out for a blessed sec 4 year ahead... with a mission trip inside, maybe. If God wills!

Deborah - you didn't study or listen AT ALL last year? colour me surprised. hope your throat is better!

Eunice - once you have time after finishing work you should blog on the journey God has taken you in your Os! Congrats again, by the way. :)

Tim - hope it's ALL GOOD IN THE HOOD

Yew Gin - don't play so much Sudden Attack hor. got to balance the studies and the gaming well this year.

Hannah and Geoff - how's secondary school life! first secondary school test usually much harder than primary school hor. watch out for it. my math plummeted from 90+ in P6 down to 54 for my 1st sec1 test. shocked my mum, i still remember.

Meena - hope you're doing well and can come this week! haven't seen you the whole of 2011!

Joshua - och aye we haven't forgotten you mae laddae. hope you're not freezing to death in scotland. and if you can update us on how you're doing through this blog that would be awesome.

HELLO, okay first of all the reason I'm online now is cos I didn't go to school. I'm sick :( I have laryngitis but luckily no fever, so I cannot talk hahaha i can try but nothing comes out.

I hope you all had a good few days of school :) For me school was good and i'm actually missing it right now!

So yup ok since it's a new year, on to my new year resolutions for school:
1. Study
2. Listen during class

Yeah that's pretty much it, i didn't do either of those last year heh:) BUT I WILL! must try at least right or i won't get anywhere.

Okaay, that's all. Need to study. Test tomorrow.

-Deborah:)

First day of school!

So today we were told of our new teachers and stuff. Unfortunately my new form teacher is a really annoying and a biased (i'm not swearing) woman who doesn't have good impressions of me since the Germany trip last year. :( of all people right??

Apparently she thinks I'm a... alright never mind.

The four days of 2011 has been pretty forgettable but then I realised that I've been taking things for granted now a days. It's so easy, you know? Human nature I guess.
I'm pretty excited how this year is going to be a challenge to me -- mugging and all. I haven't been doing that since Sec 1 (enjoy life right?? :-) )

heh just a random pic ;) (dont kill me keri)

xx Esther

HELLO:)

Hey Oriole!

Today i started my horrible JC life in my horrible school:( The worse thing is i started lessons already and i have homework too. NO ORIENTATION.NO FUN ICE BREAKERS.RUNNING 6 ROUNDS IN THE AFTERNOON SUN. That's how i got started on my first day at school:(

OK! YAY let me fill this blog with my hammy pictures:D I NAMED HIM FUDGIE:D:D
This is him a few days ago^^

This is him now! he's grown so much right! so furry now:D

ok byebye~~

HEYEYEY

Great spending time and playing them weird games at Haato today:)

We rock oriole! We must remember to keep that awesome ownage up;)

Anyway tomorrow is a holiday cuz we're studying(phew) so yes, remmeber to cherish it! All the best before school starts. Don't panick/get scared! Pray:) Especially you Geoff and Hannah:)Cuz you're gonna be big now an in sec1! Hehe. Fun.

I'm so nervous. I don't wanna be like the worst in my class or something:( I think I have too much pressure to kick butt every year:( and this year all the small butt kicked are getting bigger! EEEE... BELL CURVE.

I'm scaredddd. I haven't been studyingggg.... What if I can't do my worrkkkk.... then everyone will be better than me in my already not so average class... ARGH.

I know, my mentality sucks, because I think that you're only good if you're better than everyone in your class.

EEE....

PRESSURE.

PRAY.

CONQUER.

Ok enough.

Keri so selfish.

I wish you all a wonderful school year:)

May your pockets be heavy and your hearts be light:)

-Irish saying.

XOXO
KERI!!!!

ORIOLE..... we were meaning to do this in 2010 but we didnt.

LET US HAVE AN ORIOLE CHALET :) :) :) oh pls oh pls! we lock ourselves into a nice little "cabin" and then just have an ORIOLE time, boardgames, talk, eat etc,  without a care in the world.


ALL IN FAVOUR SAY AY!



claud

Humility

The idea of humility perplexes me. Pride - the deadliest sin - is so subtle, so sly, and so widely applicable. And I don't think you would know what kind things I'm referring to.

I think God is trying to teach me something about it.

Any thoughts about it?

Kenneth

Dearest Oriole,

I am back! Well I had a really nice end to 2010 in Thailand Ban Chang, seeing familiar faces, painting and doing up Bethlehem House (an orphanage cum house for children at risk or orphans). The trip was a good balance between work and play, and of course foooood. :)

Meanwhile, it was very heartening to see the blog up and running and Orioleans blogging. haha.

First JYM of 2011 tomorrow, and as i was reflecting last Sunday during JYM about what we are thankful for, I was amazed at how much God has been faithful to EVERYONE, how He saw JYM through so much, and really looking around I see the place where i grew up, and the place where everyone else is home and also living life. We Oriole will have a fantastic year ahead together alright my loves?

Clauddd